“Worrying is carrying tomorrow’s load with today’s strength- carrying two days at once. It is moving into tomorrow ahead of time. Worrying doesn’t empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.”- Corrie Ten Boom
I’ve been very busy recently and found that my joy had begun to wane. Not only my joy but I found myself feeling tired ALL the time! I would drag myself out of bed and feel anxious about how I was going to make it through another day. This had been going on for a few weeks when I realised I was actually worrying about lots and lots of things. Then I was asking God what to blog about and I felt the topic of worry was suddenly in my face and very present when I hadn’t even realised it had slipped back into my story.
Me and ‘worry’ go way back like an old childhood friend that got you into trouble every time you hung out. I grew up in a home were fear was perpetuated by parental temperament oh… and the terrorism affectionately known as ‘the troubles’ in Northern Ireland. I remember from a very young age thinking if I worried enough the pain of the ensuing anxiety would counter balance the bad stuff and it would be okay… as long as I suffered enough. As a Christ follower I even worked this warped thinking into my understanding of God… Like if my relationship with Him didn’t hurt in some way it wasn’t quite right… We’re in a war and there’s a cost to the call, suck it up, set your face like flint and get on with it, you’ll be rewarded in the next life; were all phrases I’d trot out and seemed to make perfect sense. This was often compounded by my interpretation of Mathew 25-34 when worry would be combined with guilt!
But that was a long time ago. I’ve done the courses, I’ve had the prayer ministry and I honestly thought I’d dealt with this sucker! I thought I’d disabled its influence in my life for good. Consequently my unacknowledged worry only became apparent when I found as Corrie Ten Boom so wisely noticed my todays were empty of strength. So if like me you’re sitting in a haze of exhaustion from yet another night’s poor quality sleep. Let me direct you to the truth of God’s word. For we are not alone and worry has no place in our lives for we have The Spirit of Truth to set us free, give us rest and restore our peace.
Jn 14:16 And I will ask the Father and He will give you another Comforter (Counsellor, Helper, Intercessor, Advocate, Strengthen and Standby), that He may remain with you forever.
Stop everything take a few moments and ask God through the power of His Spirit to make the above scripture a reality in your world today.